Well, what's new?

Hm... new... well my girlfriend is amazing... and she's... making a great effort at living to the fullest to say the least... eventhough last week was pretty bad. But oh well, no matter... things are better now. Tonight felt... really good... like she really loved me and kissed me like she meant it... like it hadn't been for a while. so i'm glad and overjoyed at that in itself. other than my love, life is alright i think. HSM 2 is opening up saturday. i'm excited and can't wait to kick some butt! looking to be pretty awesome! but anywho, life... is alright for now... let's keep it that way, forever. =)

The Climb

Now here we are. The two of us. At the bottom of... well... quite a large hill. I guess it's time we climb it together. I'm glad you're letting me make this trek with you, because it won't be easy alone. And that, my love, is what i'm here for. I can't guide you the entire way, but knowing that i can help is enough. We left that pothole in the road behind, and now we're here. Yes, i know, the mountain looks pretty high. But don't worry. I'll be right there if you trip. I'll patch up any wounds. Scare away any demons. This is going to take a while. And I can promise you that it won't be easy. But just hold my hand, I'll kiss you on the cheek, and I'll smile and say, "Let's go."

Do you even?

Do you even realize what you've done?
Do you even know what you said to me?
Do you even what to know what this has done to me?
You BROKE my heart, it's going to take A LOT to fix it.
YOU told me to stop fighting, i guess i will now.
You don't even know... that this hurt the most.
You killed me first. And I love you still.

Joy

Hi joy. How were you? cause i'm glad you came to visit me. You fill me up with your... well.. joy! And you emanate with love and warmth. It's not that warmth where you have a fever... but the warmth where you don't want to move or else you'll lose the feeling. right? anywho. Joy, you have many names. Right now, they are clare, kaylee, tea, reading blogs, and my panda son and his mommy in cute pictures. you've been hard to find lately... boucing around and mocking me! but... right now i'm glad you decided to stop and have a sit down with me. it makes me happy. i love this feeling. i love you joy. =)

The Thread

i couldn't believe it... what was happening... i didn't want to... i felt dead inside the whole time.
every sentence, every word, tore my insides apart. it kept being torn and torn and torn... until there was nothing left. but wait! there... dangling by a single thread... was my heart. i saw it there... dangling quite precariously. i didn't want to touch it. and at that moment... it felt like that thread was breaking. slowly but surely breaking... leaving me as a heap of mangled emotions. but then suddenly, something happened. it was very queer... i felt a strange... tang at that string that my heart was holding onto... a tug if you will. and it looked as if... no, it can't be... someone was pulling that string to grab hold of my heart? the same person that almost cut the thread... grabbed back on and was grasping BACK ON? i was filled with... joy. overwhelmed by it! i grabbed back onto my own heart as well... and together, we fixed my insides... stitched them back together... as if nothing ever happened. but something did happen... i will remember... she will remember... we need to... to keep that connection strong. it scared me alright.... it frightened me... that my heart almost fell into a heap with the rest of me... but no. she was there to catch it again... like she usually does. like we usually DO. i was lucky this time around. hopefully... we keep to our words. i believe we can. i love her... she loves me. so far everyone should be alright. future here we come!

My... well... life.

Hi. I'm writing... a blog... cause kaylee thought i should... so i said why not.
so anyways... i guess i'll write my bio.
i am LAWRENCE WAYNE PATCHIN.
i'm glad i have the people i have in my life.
i'm glad i'm alive.
i'm glad i'm in both jazz and concert choir at vhs.
i sing bari bass AND tenor in jazz. and tenor in concert lol =)
i have the most WONDERFUL and amazing girlfriend in the entire world.
she is the best anyone could ever ask for and i think i'll write about clare later... =DDDD
i have lots of friends... and right now i'm TROY IN HSM2 at the canyon theatre guild Feb.6-Mar.6 people! get your tickets! =D
i love lots of music... especially the fratellis, cause they're the fratellis! lol
i'm WAY into musical theatre... cause it's awesome... i met clare doing musical thetre! so it's something special to me
i love pokemon... still i don't CARE what you say! =D
i'm a facebook junkie... like a lot of people these days!
aaaaaand... i love almond joys! get me some and i might love you for the rest of my life lol
so that's me thanks for reading! gj kaylee... for converting me damnit =)